Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Thats just messed up....



I don’t pretend to not have a problem with things that I do and I don’t pretend to believe in things I don’t. I don’t lie and I’m not fake. I say it like it is. I don’t pretend to be sweet when I’m mad. I don’t pretend to not want things that I really, really do. I don’t play games and I don’t walk around like peoples feelings don’t matter. I don’t think I’m better than anyone else and I know I have my quirks n flaws that make me who I am.  I’m sometimes a sloppy drunk and sometimes things escape my mouth without fully being processed in my head. But I do feel remorse and I don’t like making anyone feel bad or hurt or used or unwanted. I don’t think I’m perfect but I know I’m special. I’m not conceited but I know I am a beautiful person. I have a good heart and I give everyone a chance. Even when you’ve blown yours there’s another waiting right around the corner. I try to make a difference and I try to keep on believing, even when at times I just feel like giving up. I try to be the best person I can be and sometimes I succeed and some days I fall flat. 

So I think it’s fucked up how you wake up one morning and decide to cut me from your life. No word. No warning. Just like that! Like I don’t matter?! Its sucks because I didn’t do anything wrong so how I am still left feeling guilty?
It crap cos I am left with no explanation. No words said. I’m just left hanging like I didn’t meant shit. The worst thing is that ill never know because its perfectly clear I was given the chance to ask. 

Every hello ends with a goodbye but it still matters the way you say it! 



1 comment:

  1. And after a looooong wait ;p it was well worth it...thanx 4the great read...we tend to forget something so quickly about ourselves, we control, we have power to let someone or something affect us, we need to keep reminding ourselves of our worth and we need to keep in mind that the present is happening, each second gone is one you cannot get back, so use ur time and thpoughts on that, that matters...YOU and YOUR HAPPINESS!!

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