Ice Cream for Supper......

And marshmallows for breakfast.... Cartoons in bed on lazy Sunday mornings, n weepy chick flicks late into the evenings... Smudged mascara n hour long bubble baths....  Sarah Mclachlan in the background while making cupcakes, or Rob Zombie while painting a new piece. Hours of Reality Tv and lazy naps on the couch. Last minute drinks with girlfriends n getting away with wearing yesterdays tshirt. Sleeping in ya undies n that 'shoulda been thrown out years ago' hood and not worrying about crumbs on the other half of the bed. Deciding in 5 minutes what to order in for supper and no arguing about what movie to see. Slurping hot chocolate and ugly crying, openly, at the mushy parts in romantic comedies. Not putting the cap back on the toothpaste and walking around with a face mask n cucumber on your eyes with no shame…..

We all start off with many tear stained nights. We wonder where things went wrong and how we could have avoided the dreaded break up. We go through the raw emotions and feel them harshly as each new one takes over. Hurt, anger, betrayal, loss, sadness, disappointment, the list goes on. We spend days, weeks, even months feeling down and not good enough and lonely. We drunk dial and sent paranoid messages. We drive ourselves crazy thinking about all the people taking our place in our ex’s lives but all the while missing out on the awesome opportunities unveiling themselves to us on a daily basis.

We get hung up on the negative and find ourselves being unable to breathe. Its like picking a scab – its never gonna heal unless you allow it. There are so many cool things about being in a relationship and it seems all the focus is drawn and stops there. But what about all the positives about being on your own? That little fart in the breeze…. There are so many plus sides and no - having random sex is not the only one. (Boys!!!) Its almost like we get to dismantle our selves and begin a complete reinvention. We get to piece ourselves together again, slow and steady. We get to control the decisions we make and we get to focus on so many wonderful things instead of always worrying about putting someone else first. And anyone who says singles cant fall in love is talking rubbish…. I’m falling more and more in love every day…. With myself.. Discovering the different parts of me that have been dormant for so long is so much fun! Its like there is a constant party in my heart and I just cant contain myself!!

We can’t live in the past and its safe to say we will definitely still have bad days and small reminders of what we had and what was lost. Our pillows may still absorb the tears on those nights when you feel all alone and our broken hearts will take time for the scars to disappear, but it’s important to remember that it always gets better. So long as there is a tomorrow there is always a chance to make it better. And so long as we have Ice Cream for Supper….. we’ll all be ok!

Chocolates and Sprinkles!