Today I lost my best friend. Today I had to make the hardest decision I have ever had to make. I had to decide what was right for you and put my own feelings aside. Today I lost my companion. I had to give MY angel back to God so he could give her wings and breathe her life back into her poor old body. I know not everyone gets it and they say if you just not a dog person you probably just wont get it but Buttons, you were truly my truest, most special companion. No matter what happened you were always there by side. If you weed where you shouldn't have or chewed something that was mine, it didn't matter if I got cross with you, two minutes later you were back in my lap giving me loves and licks.
People say I gave you a great last few years during your “retirement” but the way I see it is that you actually gave me a great time. Its amazing how much I learnt through you. I have learnt that some things really are just that much more important. I learnt that it doesn't matter what people think so long as you believe and so long as you love. Some laughed at my tattoo and thought I was crazy but you will always be a huge part of me and now its just one more reminder.
I never thought it was possible to love anything or anyone so much but my love for you is still unconditional. Mom didn't wanna see you suffer and mom didn't want to see you hurt so mom had to make a call. I'm gutted that I wont get to cuddle you and kiss you again and it kills me that I wont see your little face waiting at the door for me when I come home. It kills me that I wont hear you softly snoring next my bed and it breaks me that I wont get to laugh at your funny faces and stretching noises in the mornings. It breaks my heart that all I have left now are photos and memories but I would rather feel all this hurt myself than ever bear to look at your little face with those big brown eyes and know that your pain was silenced.
So today mommy had to say goodbye to you and even though its breaking my heart, I know I did right by you my precious pup.
Mom loves you always!
RIP Buttons my little Furball!
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My heart aches at the loss of Buttons but we have to remember that she brought joy to so many people, young and old!! She had a good full life and is now is doggy heaven with Chester, Logon, Kronic, Snuggles and all our other beloved pets we have lost to old age.
ReplyDeleteShe came into our lives when we least expected it but who could have turned her away? Buttons was truly faithful who loved us unconditionally. She had the most beautiful soft fur and the bushiest tail that always smacked you in the face when she sat on your lap.
She is at peace now and yes CAnn, she may have been the best thing that happened to you...teaching you to be responsible for another living being when you only had yourself to care for. She taught you to be patient and understanding.
I know you will never forget her, same as you have never forgotten any of our other family pets, but she most definately has a special place in your heart (and your foot).
RIP Buttons and thank you for so many, many years of joy!
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ok i had to seriously hold back the tears sitting here in my office!! RIP Butty, she was an amazing doggie, even for her age she occassionally had charm and charisma, it takes a very brave person to see the truth in that though, you knew that you had her best interest at heart, you knew it was her time to be in Doggy Heaven!! you were the kindest, most loving mommy to her!! sending hugs ur way, and Jessie sends licks!!
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